I am Sarah, Adam’s blushing bride. I want to begin by saying, “Thank you,” to those who have already jumped on board our adoption ship by donating funds for our home study and, more importantly, by praying for us and our future child(ren) during our journey through these bumpy waters. We are still in the first phase and have already reached points of frustration, confusion and revelation. Frustration and confusion are less than fun topics so I choose to focus this post on revelation.
A quick insight: In the past few months Adam and I have gotten married, began the adoption process for our Ghanaian child, began the adoption process for Adam to adopt my son, continued with my schooling, began an art business and continued with our son’s home schooling, all the while Adam is tackling a more than gigantic job at his place of employment. Phew! Needless to say, there are a few distractions that have tried to pull us tighter into the mundane tasks of life, which, more often than not, serve to pull us from God and His purposes. Thank the Lord that He, in His grace and infinite wisdom, knowing we are always prone to wander, and continually sin, blessed us with a support group that is overwhelming; a group of men and women who are also striving to put the Lord first. Our Pastor, Robert Livingston, one of these supportive friends, lead by the Holy Spirit, reminded me of something in his sermon last week. Speaking on Abraham, he focused his sermon on our tendency to need control over our lives and how attempting to take control from God only results in our suffering.
Of all of my tendencies, fighting for control is the most pertinent in my life currently. Which is why, I truly believe, Adam and I are in the midst of so many things that we could never control, particularly the Ghanaian adoption. Truly God has set the spirit of adoption into our hearts and has comforted our minds that we will adopt, with His help. Key phrase: “with His help.” While there is comfort in knowing God set the desire in our hearts, ensuring our minds that He will bring it to fruition, being so uninvolved with the actual details can be nerve-racking. We must trust circumstances concerning our finances, the physical space of our residence, the impact of bringing an orphan child home, the work done outside the home by agencies and government employees, legal issues, and the circumstances that surround our future child-where he or she is at now and what his or her days contain, all of these over the course of a year or longer – all into the hands of our Loving Father. Someone like me tends to feel frantic over trusting so many other individuals in the steps to secure my future child into my arms. However, God is using this to remind me, as He so often does, that without Him – He who controls each of these details – I can truly do nothing. Praise the Lord!
The Bible tells us that the Lord is a father to the fatherless and a defender of widows. Surely, children, particularly orphans, are dearly loved by our father; the father who deemed us as orphans and rescued us into His safekeeping. If something as important as protecting orphans and bringing them into God-fearing and safe homes can be entrusted, detail by detail, into the Lord’s hands, surely our finances, health, well-being, schooling etc. etc., can as well. Let us find peace in entrusting the large and the little things into God’s safekeeping and let us take the opportunity to use the large issues as a witness for those who would not consider entrusting anything to our Holy, omnipotent, omniscient, and omnipresent Father.